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Back and forth..back and forth..I continue to try and then bail on my good decisions through the day..each day! Seems like my mind is on "good weeks" and "bad weeks" cycles--nothing in between. When I'm good, I'm really watchful in every way, workout, eat right, prepare meals, and refrain from junk. When I'm bad, I just completely let myself go, and one day rolls into the next, and I keep telling myself, oh well, one more day to the mix and then I'll be good...let me just get this out of my system, then I'll be good..and so on.
I really need to work on mental correction of not sticking to these addictions and letting them pile up. I need to learn an acute FEAR of how these addictions can grow on me...so one bad day of eating, and I should be fixing that right away the next day by running off to the gym and working off the calories and cravings!!!
That's really my problem. It's not the ONE day of bad eating or slipping up-- it's the letting-it-become-an-insidious-habit-for-DAYS-on-end!! And simultaneously, I tend to feel so crappy and fat, that I lose all motivation or energy to go workout when I've been eating badly! So it's a complete undoing of all things good.
Well, so officially, on the 2nd day of the 2nd month--not the typical 1st day of the 1st month--I am re-starting the program...the plan to reprogram my brain!!!
Today's meal has been a salad and a coffee so far. Need to drink 3 bottles of water before evening, and then after classes, go do my zumba class, and then another 30 on the treadmill. No DINNER OTHERWISE!!
I'll come back and report the good news later, y'all! Good luck to you as well!! Thanks for your support!!!
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