I am an only child. We were very poor sometimes only having popcorn to eat. We had no plumbing. I have been fat my entire life, I had few friends and have been hurt by people soooooooo many times. As an adult I have a problem trusting people. I have tried to lose weight and I have only to regain it all back and some. I still have no one that I can count on to walk (im in a remote area) with me or diet with me. I work customer service for a Law Enforcement Agency. I don't fit in there either. There are plenty of people telling me what I NEED to do, but they are not in my shoes nor are they willing to help me. I have high blood pressure, low iron and thyroid disease. I seem to be following in my moms footsteps she has all the above and has sugar. She has had two heart attacks and she is only 66. I am running out of ambition. Is the way I feel normal to anyone else?