Jornal de Gleny1220, 12 abr 16

I was anorexic in my teens a bulimic in my twenties and then went on to become an obsessive exercizer...you can do this...the thoughts of eat or starving myself used to fill my every waking hour. I sought professional help, and learned how to eat like a "normal" person...a person who eats intuitively...it's not easy I know...I feel for you...it can be done. Good luck. we can talk more if you need. 

anorexia and bulimia are serious health issues, and like lulani, i've experienced them too. you're right that you need to get some help, these are rarely problems that you can fix yourself. please please get some help, if not for yourself, for the sake of your son. be kind to yourself in the meantime, beating yourself up won't make it better. sending you lots of good wishes, and i'm here too if you need a shoulder to lean on. 

anorexia and bulimia are serious health issues, and like lulani, i've experienced them too. you're right that you need to get some help, these are rarely problems that you can fix yourself. please please get some help, if not for yourself, for the sake of your son. be kind to yourself in the meantime, beating yourself up won't make it better. sending you lots of good wishes, and i'm here too if you need a shoulder to lean on. 

Do seek help if you can. I struggled with that for years as well, and nothing got better until I finally got treatment for my depression. The urges are still there, but they are easier to deny now. I'm so sorry you feel so awful right now. Just remember that you and your body are worthy of respect and forgiveness. Self punishment is never the best way, even though it feels like the only option sometimes.  

Sending you courage. And agreement that you need individualized attention from a therapist who specializes in these challenges. Please reach out. You will get the compassionate help that you need. 

Gleny, did you go off the meds? You sound really upset right now, maybe you need to share this with your doctor because your issues go further than what this site can offer for help. I'd suggest just for the time being, to put the dieting portion on hold... Not quit it, just a temporary hold until you and your doctor can find the best anti depressants for you. Don't worry to hard for the pizza, it's just cheese and flour and tomatoes... Maybe 450 calories? Maybe tonight take it slow, stick to water, brush your teeth, watch TV, get your mind busy on things other than food. 

Gleny. You're so much more than a momentary lapse. Pick yourself up, realize you made a mistake and your best not to do it again. It's all any of us can do. You can do this. We're all here rooting for you 

You are not alone. I've been wrestling with the same ugly demon on and off for 20 years myself. I know for me the trigger is usually stress, so I've had to find other ways to channel it. I've been in recovery mode again since last May and I'm feeling more hopeful than ever that I've got it licked. The thought, feelings, urges, and obsessing have not gone away completely, but this time it's just different. I had a dear friend of 25 plus years die suddenly with no known cause around my Birthday in September. She has a daughter the same age as mine. When Amy passed it made me wake up and realize how fragile life is, and the thought of leaving by daughter without a mom is unbearable. Losing weight when you have an ED and your metabolism is shot is no easy task. Every time I stopped a cycle every single thing I ate made me blow up, which is beyond frustrating. I know everyone is different but for me the ONLY way to lose weight and fight food/sugar addiction is to rock out on Atkins. Not eating sugar and carbs does a great deal to hush that voice in the back of your head telling you to binge... AND you lose weight. It's a win win. The important thing is to be kind to yourself and take baby steps...take it one minute at a time if you have to. Beating this is no easy feat, and you're not alone! 💖