So this week's focus in the school of sanctification is...radical obedience, oh and humility. Um, yeah, that's just a wee bit outside my comfort zone. 0_o However, I see growth in these areas, which is exciting and invigorating.
For those whom that may just sound like code or doubletalk, I am recognizing a divine challenge: Am I willing to trust G-d and submit to the leadership He's placed over me when the direction they give me doesn't make sense or seem right to me? Yikes!
Sometimes this is much harder because I have the urge to rebel. My inner dialogue/monologue is saying, "This doesn't make sense. WHY am I doing this? Do I REALLY have to do it THIS way? Can this be over with NOW?" Etc., And to get past this I keep trying to breathe deeply and think, G-d, I don't know why this is part of Your plan, but if You are leading, I can follow. Maybe this is my Naaman-at-the-Jordan-River moment. This thing you want me to do may not make sense to me, but it's simple and clear. Thank You for making the path straight.
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