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So I have been carbing big time the past couple of days and fully aware of what I'm doing. I have tried to be honest with tracking everything which probably means I could have done much more damage 😬 by mindless eating.
It gets really frustrating when I work hard to drop these pounds in a way that is sustainable and continually hitting hurdles. Getting my weightloss past the 30 - 40 pounds range is something I feel like my body really fights me at.
Ok, so carbs are my kryptonite. Eating more carbs doesn't fix my issue and doesn't even make me feel better. Must be about self punishment??
My pain level is so high constantly that some days I feel like I'm not going to be able to make much longer. My solution to the pain is hip replacement surgery I have been patiently pursuing for two years!! Every time I think it's finally going to happen there is another delay. So now February 11, 2020 is the date the surgeon has set. Eye on the prize....but so pessimistic at this point...I just see myself in a wheelchair going off s cliff.
I'm like a hamster on a wheel, too much pain to get the wheel turning...need to turn the wheel to survive, lose weight, improve life...the harder I try the more it hurts both during the activity and after. What is the point? I have lost that 30 - 40 pounds but, truthfully I don't feel any different...I see it because my clothes are getting too big....but my pain and ability to move are not any better.
Wallow, wallow, wallow...keep trying, keep tracking, keep looking up 🆙⬆️
What did Maya Angelou say? "and still I rise"
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1328 kcal
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Gord: 43,16g | Prot: 47,18g | Carbs: 194,00g.
Café da Manhã: Nabisco Honey Maid Cinnamon Graham Crackers, Sunsweet Dried Pitted Prunes. Jantar: Egg sandwich, Lemonade. Lanches/Outros: Jewel-Osco Garden Vegetable Cream Cheese Spread, Taylor Farms Celery Sticks, Welch's Red Raspberry Spread, Peanut Butter, Great Value Wheat Sandwich Bread. mais...
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