Jornal de suechru, 20 ago 10

I'm seriously considering stopping weigh ins for a while. The scale was up this morning AGAIN and I was kind of stressing about it all day and then I got home and a ring I haven't worn in a year fit me. Yes, folks, I might be fat according to the wii but I apparently have a size 6 ring finger again. I can't even begin to explain that one to you.

I kind of had a freakout today honestly. I attribute that partly to spending the day reviewing diabetes data (which I think is making me paranoid. I always think I have whatever disease of the study I'm working on at the time. I was convinced once I had lung cancer.), but the rest was just my general frustration. I know I've made progress but I still have that nagging fear that one bad day and I'll wake up back at my start weight. Which I know, not really possible, but from what people here have written that's not an uncommon fear, right? Right?

Debating whether or not to go to weekly weigh-ins. On one hand, I worry that if I have week (especially this early) that I see no progress (due to alcohol or whatever) that I'll just get frustrated and stop. I know I'll plateau eventually - probably several times but it wouldn't bother me as much later on (when most of my clothes at least fit). Plus, I'm kind of anal and need to "know", it might drive me crazy to go for a week without weighing in. Although, I'm getting very frustrated at the wii these days, which is how I weigh in. I love the tracker and all that. The part I hate is that if you're up a POUND from the prior day it pretty much harasses you and makes you pick a reason. There's no option for "I'm bloated" or "I drank alcohol last night and am crazily dehydrated." Then it lectures. Which is annoying. Lecture me if I'm up 3 lbs, not one. It will mention that weight fluctates up to 2lbs a day but then give me a stern talking to for 1.3 lbs like I got this morning. The hell? Isn't it bad enough that my poor obese mii doesn't have a shirt that even covers her big mushy belly?

I actually don't even use the wii fit that much for exercise since a lot of the stuff has gotten too easy and for those following along I'm doing the 30 Day Challenge on EA Sports Active. (Which I really highly recommend to anyone with a wii). The virtual trainers are really encouraging. Plus, it's actually a workout (although not enough ab stuff IMO but I can always supplement with duration hula hoop on wii fit, which ALWAYS makes me sore the day after.)

Anyone know if EA Sports Active is somewhat accurate with the amount of calories burned? Somehow I burned over 500 tonight between the 30 Day Challenge and tennis. (I got hooked on the tennis) and I'm not sure if that's like wildly overstated.

Decided that I'm setting my minimum to 1500 calories a day now, with a max at 2000. We'll see what if anything that does to my metabolism, fat loss, energy etc. Should also give me enough wiggle room. It's not the end of the world if I go over a little or under a little but I think that should hopefully be a good amount for me at this point. It kind of bothers me that I really don't know what the best amount is and I'm kind of taking wild stabs at it. I'm a scientist by nature, I like facts and data, not wild guesses and trial and error.

I know this is kinda lame but I'm really excited for tomorrow morning because that means I get to go to the farmer's market. Yes, folks, one of the highlights of my week is going to a farmer's market. I just always find the absolute best stuff at this place. It's prime produce season where I live too so everything's just so colorful and fresh looking. Plus, I always discover something new - like Italian Eggplant is even better than regular eggplant. Yum.

Anyway, I think I have to accept that there are going to be emotional moments and even minor freakouts on this journey. I'm basically going full steam through a big pile of issues and it gets messy.

Which is why I'm now sticking affirmations at the end my journal entries, cheesy as that is. So here we go:

Affirmations for 20 Aug 2010
1) I'm learning to eat properly and will get better at figuring it out as I learn more

2) My body is growing stronger and healthier every day.

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1650 kcal

Gord: 35,93g | Prot: 92,17g | Carbs: 237,27g.   Café da Manhã: Coffee, Cream (Half & Half), No Calorie Sweetener Packets, Water, Greek Style Nonfat Yogurt - Blueberry, Bananas. Almoço: Granny Smith Apples, Deli Thin Sliced Oven Roasted Chicken Breast, Whole Wheat Pita Pockets, Baby Carrots, Dijon Mustard, Diet Dr. Pepper. Jantar: water, baby carrots, trader joe's mandarin orange chicken. Lanches/Outros: water, tostitos scoops baked, Rold Gold Pretzel Sticks, salsa, Special K Cereal Bars - Strawberry, Bottled Water. mais...

3981 kcal

Exercício: Calistenia (Leve, p.e. Exercícios em Casa) - 10 minutos, EA Sports Active - 52 minutos, Estar Sentado - 30 minutos, Trabalho de Escritório - 8 horas, Descansar - 6 horas e 13 minutos, Trabalho Doméstico - 1 hora, Dirigir - 15 minutos, Dormir - 7 horas. mais...