Jornal de Mjgh06, 16 ago 18

WARNING: RANT VENT -

I was having a good day until about an hour ago. My husband, myself, and our daughter went to the store for weekly items, paper towels, dog food etc.. I have only been drinking water for awhile now and I am out of coffee. We are normally on a tight budget, but we have some extra money this week. So my husband get his Dr. Pepper 24pk instead of generic, another phone card, and a few other things he has been wanting. I pick up some k-cups in various flavors because I need something with taste instead of just water.

When we get to the cashier, after unloading most of the items, I get his disparaging look that I get whenever he is upset with something I have done. I immediately take my coffee out and put it on the empty register near us. He had not seen me put it in the cart. When the total comes up to around $150, I put my coffee back on the register and state " we are still under what we had to spend". Shouldn't have done that....

He starts griping at me right there in front of the cashier and everyone about me getting the coffee. I'm like we had enough money to get it and I really don't want to drink just water forever. (I'm still crying as I write, my apologies). It doesn't stop there. All the way home he continues.. Why did I have to get coffee? He hates coffee. I explain once again about my diet and he knows I have only been drinking water. That I don't understand what the difference is between him buying Dr. Pepper instead of the generic but I can't have coffee that will last me almost 5 months. I also explain that I got stuff for all of us not just the coffee like the paper towels, toilet paper...Wrong thing to say again. That isn't stuff for everyone, it is stuff for the home. It goes on and on until I am crying in the car and feel like shit, like he would rather have me just me drink only water. Like I should just be dead because I am not worth anything. Our daughter is in the back seat while all this is happening and she turns up her music so she can't hear. Finally, he says he is sorry for the look. I stupidly say it wasn't just the look, it was everything after. So he starts again.

We finally get home and he wants to act like nothing happened, everything is okay. After getting groceries put up, he comes over to me to kiss me and I don't kiss back so he pulls me down side ways and kisses me. I just walk back into the house and fix our daughter some lunch. I go into the bathroom and cry for a while. Come back out and he is putting up my door bands for my workouts. His way of making up. But I am still in shambles over this.

I know he doesn't want me to lose weight even though after we talked whenever it comes up he will say I support you. This just is I don't know, but I feel horrible and I can't stop crying about it. So needless to say, I have not weighted today and have not eaten, just drinking my water.

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949 kcal

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1991 kcal

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