I'm an English language teacher in a college somewhere in Kuala Terengganu, Malaysia.I like sport, but it just kills me when I don't have enough energy to be good in it.I'm trying to live a better life, adopting better life habits and in the end, making the habit works for me, not adopting the habit for the sake of losing weight.

I've been in a large size ever since I was 10 years old.it all started when my mum decided to leave me with my brother so she can start working from 7am to 7pm.my mum is a single mother.she needs to provide necessities for us so often i am left with food that my brother ate,e.g. instant noodles, etc.as i grow older, i was already frustrated by the way people treat an Asian girl with not an average weight and height.

people often commented that i am a pampered girl.whereas, I'm not.i had to figure out what to eat and there was no one to teach me what good food is.having a mother whose part time job is a cook also doesn't help.in most Asian recipes, a lot of oil and coconut milk are involved.plus, eating rice just makes all the food tastier.

I've been trying to stay active but whenever i lose my jogging or diet partner, i just fell back into where i started.i used to lose about 15kg in six months because i had such good jogging partners,but that too stopped when he decided to bring his girl with him.

I'm not trying to lose weight so i can attract boys.i just want to live my best years to its fullest.i want to experience the joy of wearing beautiful clothes, giving better impressions for my students, lifting my spirit of living and try to be a better person so that i can live better, that's all.most important, i want to start a better living habit that will stay with me until I am old.

hopefully, by joining this site, I will be able to change for the better.